Nocturnal Rants

Nocturnal Rants
Originally posted on October 11, 2007 at friendsterblogs.com

according to the time tray at my computer desktop it's already 5:03 am which means that it's 5:13 Pharmtime and 5:18 Pharchemtime i arrived home at around 1:00 in the morning. to think that i had only one exam today, i mean yesterday (PhCh 35 Lab) at 8:00 am. its friday! no classes!
i've been walking around campus from 9:45 am until 7:30 pm doing nothing. that also includes at least 4 (i counted) trips to Rob. i should have been studying for an exam or something. it feels weird not doing something "academically" today (besides taking the exam) maybe i just got used to stressing out about late reports, cramming for an exam, preparing for lab classes and roundtrips to the library.
today (i mean yesterday) i helped out a friend who's in the serious verge of getting booted out of the college. i'm really happy it turned out well. we need to study *seriously*. i know how it feels.. the frustration, the guilt, the depression, the madness and the false hopes as it so ofently happen to *uhum* (whooping cough). believe me i've been there...and i'm still here.
my brother gave me some money. i thought i'm finally gonna have some huge "kick-backs" but turns-out i need to spend the cash for academic purposes. Hell Week's coming and it's the most wonderful time of the year to have some serious "binding" activities. i have this huge obssessive compulsive trait of having all my photocopied hand-outs from the entire sem ring-bound. then i buy separate sheets of colored folders (the ones they use as cover for ring-binding) and separately bind the hand-outs according to subject (tinatanggal ko yung ring bind tapos tinatahi ko at nilalagyan kop ng folder) that way i save money since i don't have my photocopies ring bound separately according to subject (1 ringbind=6 0 pesos = 1 fastfood meal= 2 merienda meals) i just have them ringbind into one large lump. the main thing here is that they have holes in them which i can separatley sew together later (according to subject). i don't know when this stupid habit started but i find it nice once i see my hand-outs neatly bound and separated. i don't mistake them for scratch papers anymore and it makes reviewing a little bit fun. (you NERD!!!! haha)
today i also had the chance to hang-out with my friends from AS and laugh (and curse) all the miseries that's been happening lately. from those a-hole exams and KR's frustrations to piolo pascual ang manny pacquiao. we had dinner at the local "5-star barbequehan sa may likod ng st.paul" which eventually led to a drinking-turned-ice-cream session. i realized how times have really changed. two or three sems ago, everyday we'd hang-out and do something to detoxify our already detoxified brains, from g-box to sudden trips to floating bookstrores, but now we could barely catch up with each other. Mabibilang mo lang talaga sa daliri ng kamay mo yung mga time na nagkikita kami. i don't know...external factors? maybe. toxicity? i don't know. seems like everybody's been busy doing their thing lately. i'm not compalining, though. it's a good sign actually, with the current history of me and my friends' friendly talks with Sir Eric. (Sir Eric's da mahn!). it means that were taking things more seriously now, and we desperately need to, even at the expense of our already diminsihed social lives.
two of my friends also gave me their gradpics. i wonder when will i have one of those. the dream of wearing that stupid sablay seems so frustrating. i remember a time when all the motivation i needed to study is to be able wear that stupid pauso of UP someday. it's a great accessory though. matches with every barong tagalog there is! it also matches with my eyes! haha!
i remembered a friend of mine told me that "all you need are good friends". i found the quote cheesy and hallmark-ish that time but now i realized what hell of a meaning it has. at the end of a totally sh*tty day all you need are good friends to help you laugh out the miseries and keep that sanity hanging...
it's now 5:45am which means that its 5:55 Pharmtime and 6:00 Pharchemtime better get some serious shut-eye. all hell's breaking lose on my face and i have eyebags the size of divisoria tomatoes. i still need to finish compiling my reviewer thingies and review for my exam on Saturday (Biochem 4th exam, steroids to nucleic acid expression or something)...im also hoping not to have intracranial hemorrhage once i start reading the hand-outs..nose bleed...